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I did something this week that I don't normally do. I shared this blog with a person I actually know. And not just a person I know, a family member. Ever since then I've had a stomach ache thinking about it.
I know she's read my blog this weekend, and she has even left me the sweetest, kindest comments. But I still feel like I showed up to school without my pants.
Especially considering that lately I haven't put much love or effort into my neglected little blog, because sometimes life just happens like that.
So I'll be over here, trying not to read back thru my blog posts and pick out all their faults.
Anyone else ever feel the same way?
Yup! My sisters know about my blog but they don't read it since they're the most low maintenance girls to ever grace the earth and couldn't care less about makeup. For me it just works better that way. Makes me much less self-conscious. I also LOVE keeping secrets and being all mysterious-like. ;O
ReplyDeleteNever under estimate the power of a good blog, and yours is one of them, my friend.
ReplyDeleteYes! I told my sister-in-law about my blog and felt weird about it too. She doesn't leave comments though, she'll email me comments and I'm not sure why. I've gotten over the sicky feeling now.
ReplyDeleteYou're blog is interesting, creative, informative and amazingly witty. I'm sure your relative will be proud!
ReplyDeleteThanks for the kind words and re-assurance everyone, and I'm also glad to hear that I'm not the only one to feel this way. Stomach ache slowly subsiding.... :)
ReplyDeleteI totally understand how you're feeling. I didn't let on to my friends in real life that I had a blog until after almost an entire year of blogging. I didn't want to be judged!!
ReplyDeleteHowever I'm over it now....what I write is sincere and a true reflection of my life (but I never write anything negative about anyone in particular) so there's nothing to be concerned about (for me anyway). Still, exposing yourself to those closest to you can sometimes be the hardest!!?
Aww don't be like that Tracy! You have a great blog and nobody has the right to judge it, even less someone who doesn't have a blog!
ReplyDeleteMy friends know about my blog but most just don't care, which I'm OK with (:
Try to block it out and just go with your gut, like you always do, on posting. Sometimes I feel like you do--b/c my sis-in-law found my blog and it can be uncomfortable (why I don't know), but then I find myself forgetting about it. The same will happen for you :)
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I feel like that all the time. I'm like Nikosmommy in that I didn't tell anyone about my blog for almost a year. My husband didn't even read my stuff until I had gone away for a weekend with my girlfriends. If I would have known he was doing that I would have felt all weird but was surprised with his wonderful comments afterwords. So, seeing as I'm the relative that you're talking about, let me just say that I love reading your blog, not just for the tips (cause as you know I'm challenged in the makeup department, and I desperately need them) but because its a part of who you are...and that my friend, makes me it even better. Thanks for sharing with us Tracy.
ReplyDeleteIt's very brave to share something this personal with someone you know, someone very close.. So, good for you, you're so brave!
ReplyDeleteTracy - I love your blog! :-) I know how you feel though. It does get weird when you expose yourself (not like "expose yourself" in a naughty way:-)). I had these feelings briefly in the beginning and was worried that some of my family would think i was silly or bad at this but then I said "screw it". i'm the oddball in my family so it wouldn't be the first time they thought that. You keep on cruisin girl! I need more of My Best Beauty Buys!!
ReplyDeleteBTW - Calgary???
Jayme @ Her Late Night Cravings
http://herlatenightcravings.blogspot.com/
Ladies once again you remind me why I do this. There are days when I question that, but reading your comments brings back all the great reasons why I do continue and all the great blogger friends I've met.
ReplyDeleteOh and hello karmenghia...you have been so sweet and understanding of my crazy neuroses. You have a great blog and I'm so happy you shared it with me and I've shared mine with you - everyone check her out!
And Jayme - you're right...on all counts !
I feel that way all the time, I tweet when I post and my tweets post to facebook. I usually don't think about who is reading but when someone asks me about it in person I always feel a little bit like hiding!!! :-)
ReplyDeleteSometimes I think, "Oh my god, what if so and so reads this, what will they think?" or "I'm posting pictures of myself in outfits, people must think I'm so vain" but i try and block that out and be true to myself and trust my gut. Just do what you love. It's none of your business what other people think of you ; ). You can't please everyone. But i have a feeling your friend thinks your blog is really cool! And it IS! I hope your stomach goes away asap!
ReplyDeleteI was super nervous when I told my boyfriend!! At first I felt awful and silly, But now its no big deal! :] You should never be embarrassed of something that you put your heart into. :]
ReplyDeleteYAY!! :-)
ReplyDeleteGoing to check out karmenghia now.
Jayme @ Her Late Night Cravings